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Here it is November 1st and I can truthfully say that I am very happy with how things are going in my life. I have a wonderful girlfriend that loves me for who I am and cares deeply for me. I am more motivated to do new things again and push towards goals I thought were too far away. Life has definitely been challenging over the corse of the past year, but things that should have broke me completely; didn't. My growth over the last two years is apparent in just about everything I do, say, react and even feel. My journey in life is really only beginning and I look forward to what the new year will bring.
In the spirit of starting anew, I feel it's only right to share the blogs I started, but never finished. Here they are:
The Twitter Ripple... (9/2/2009)
So, three months ago, me and some of my friend decided to jump on Twitter to test it out. Some of of enjoyed it and caught on well, while others struggled keeping up or staying interested. The biggest thing for us was having the ability to plan nights out through tweets because we'd all get the message.
Since then, I decided to venture off and find some new people. I've found some wonderful people all over the world! It's amazing how different people lives are compared to the one I live. In many was, it's refreshing to hear about others lives, problems, joys, misfortunes, travels etc.
Recently, I've had the pleasure of helping some of my tweeps out with their various problems and issues. This interaction not only helps them, but it helps me as well. Another thing that has been cool is audio and video chatting with some of my tweeps.
Hmmm.... (9/15/2009)
So this weekend was interesting. I received a couple txt messages for the ex that made me revert back to being lonely and slightly depressed. Even though the conversation wasn't a bad one, it wasn't something I needed either. It's interesting how a simple conversation with her will make me unravel, yet it does nothing to her. I think that pisses me off more than the fact that she txted me trying to figure out what's going on in my life. Oh well. No worries. Life goes on.
I've once again started looking for a new start and this time there is nothing holding me back. There's nothing keeping me here in GA.... well there is one person but, I'm not sure where that's going. My list of places has always changed from time to time. Here is my list: Charlotte NC, Orlando FL, Mountain View CA, (maybe) Sioux Falls SD
Just when you've given up.... (11/29/2009)
My life, nothing spectacular, has revolved around my moods swings for the last 9 years like a drill sargent yelling and screaming in your face during boot camp.
My thoughts.... (1/28/2010)
In my world there are two things that are for certain; I'm going to be up, and I'm going to be down. Every rarely am I ever in between these two extremes. When I'm up, I'm at the top of the world; nothing seems to bother me. I'm at the top of my game, driven, inspired, and I seem to have this aura about me that everyone wants to be around. When I'm down, I feel worthless and alone. I feel as though I'm not good enough for anyone or anything, or like the world would be a better place if I were no longer around. So as I'm sitting here watching the movie Kung Fu Hustle and I can help but compare this one scene to my life. As a group of Axe gang members make their entrance into the small town, a dark cloud follows them and is cast over the entire town.... this is so like my life. I'll be sitting, comfortably in my own little world when something comes in it and makes it all gloomy. Some dark, unwanted force coming into my life without reason....Well just like in the movie, I fight back. I fight hard for my happiness, for my peace of mind, for my joy. Is it easy? No. Do I feel like giving up sometimes? Yes. Well... what keeps you going?
That's what it's all about. Those three things keep my fight for something better, something bigger and bight, for a better life, for a better me.
Last year I pulled myself up from what seemed to be the pit of hell, but I still feel like I need to do more. In December, I took an inventory of my life, my goals and my dreams to come put with a plan to move forward with my life and be happy. Here's how things looked:
1 Self-image: hate it hate it hate it... so I joined the gym. I started going to the gym December 4 and I'm starting to feel good about myself and the way I look for the first time in many... many years. It has also made me feel better physically, boosted my confidence and has completely alter my life.
2 Where I'm at: this encompasses what I'm going with my life and where I'm going. So I haven't been completely happy with the hand I was dealt when it comes to this area. I'm extremely hard on myself but I had to stop and think... what am I doing to make it better. So I made some changes. I first thing I've set out to do is to get Mac Certified and have been making steps towards it. Another was moving out of GA. I've looked into the possibility of doing a couple things: moving to a different state looking for a techy job, or moving out of the country and teaching English
For a while now, I have wanted to get back into blogging, but nothing was pushing me to do so. Now there is! I've started two new blogs; one for my passion of film, and one for my new hobby, photography.
